The Confusion - It Just Makes no Sense
It's enormously confusing, emotional, it's beyond me.
I snapped this shot of these young boys at Mars Field, Lviv, praying over a grave ... I’m not sure what’s happening, but their sadness and young confusion jarred me. Was it a Brother? Their Dad? ... I just don’t know. There are so many, so many.
Today, out of thin air, I spoke with some amazing gentlemen from a highly regarded film production company that is aligned with what I’m doing ... and like I just wrote about those boys, I have no idea what’s happening. Trust. Pure Trust. I am just answering every feeling and stepping Forward into this calling, recording, listening, witnessing it all.
The loss ... On my third day in Ukraine, I arrived at a Soviet-era dormitory now occupied by a seminary. Lying in my bunk, looking at the ceiling and wondering, ‘What the hell am I doing here?’ I’ve let-down those closest to me, people I love immensely. I’ve disregarded commitments, I’ve been hurtful, selfish to those who care about my well-being by traveling headfirst into the world’s hottest conflict zone for no sound reason - other than I was called to do this. This sure isn’t an adventure ... It’s enormously confusing, emotional, it’s beyond me. I’ve abandoned commitments, risked my life, and compromised the most beautiful relationships I could ask for. What now?
Forward.